sleep

how is it possible that i can be so tired. physically worn-out, mentally exhausted, emotionally drained. i really just want to sleep for a very long time. and wake up when all the ashes have been blown away in the wind. where nothing is quite like it is anymore. i wonder if there's such thing as voluntary coma. hmms. i read this story about this girl who once just suddenly fainted one day, and didn't wake up till a year plus later. she had no medical condition at all and she was aware of things going around her. i wonder if that happens. who'll i see by my bed side, what will they say to me.

ignore my disturbing morbid thoughts. i'm not suicidal, yet at least.